MY UNFAITHFUL COUNTRY

by Baldeep Grewal

Call this a rant if you will or the fruitless ponderings of a young, naïve mind that doesn’t know any better! I see this as a confession. A confession of how much the silence of my own country suffocates me. A confession made because my own silence was killing me. When people ask me what I want to do after graduating my immediate response is ‘get out of this country’. I love Delhi! I really do but sometimes I get so sick of this city, its people, this whole country. I hate the silence of those who need to speak up and I detest the babble of those who need to shut up. It’s so suffocating that I can hardly breathe.

I want to know what it feels like to wear shorts and not feel perverts stare at you. I want to know what it’s like to walk down a clean street. I want to know how it feels to walk out feeling good about yourself with the wind in your hair and not be crushed by cheap comments whispered in your ears by strangers. There is so much that is so wrong – the patriarchy, the system, the silence, the roaring violence, the society. That girl, who was gang raped and murdered back in December was no different than me. She was a fan of Enrique Iglesias. She had dreams. For once she stood up for her honour and look where that got her. None of the women and men, who endure actions that betray humanity deserve this, none of them deserve to be forgotten. Just because I’m silent doesn’t mean I’ve nothing to say. I’m silent because in this city of anonymity speaking up gets you killed. I’m not afraid of dying, I just don’t want to die for a lost cause. My death would change nothing. Worst part is I don’t know what to do about any of this.

I’m not suggesting that America or Canada are utopias. All I know is this country, this geographical space is too sad for me to bear. I’ve failed to harden myself against this daily butchering of humanity, where I can’t offer a piece of chocolate to someone because they are of a ‘lower’ caste and might misunderstand my friendliness as pity. This country of Gods is burdened with too many demons. Every year Republic Day or Independence Day rolls around and they ask me to ‘love my India’. How can I love a nation that is so faithful to its idolatry gods but is unfaithful to Humanity?

Poem: The Seasons Within

By Divyakshi Gupta

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The seasons within

Fiery anger

Scorching words

Heated arguments..

Unsatiated thirst.

 

Dusty everything.

Its summer within.

 

Drops of joy

Lashing over the heart

Green cover

Refreshed soul

As if born again

 

Showers dissolving everything

Its raining within

 

Chilling silence

Icy hearts

Yearning for warmth

Longer nights

 

A frosty mask over everything

Its winter within

 

Blossomed buds

Scentful flowers

Colourful paths

Fresh beginnings

 

Beauty in everything.

It’s spring within

 

Akin to the shades of a tree

Every phase is temporary

Just like the seasons within me

just like the seasons within me…

Poem: A MONTH TOGETHER

By Anirban Mukerji

 

During the next 40 years

these chance meetings,

phone calls and SMSs  will add up

and

when you are 85

and I am 84

We can say

that we have been together

for just about a month now

Poem: HALLUCINATION

By Atri Majumdar

 

An indomitable curiosity,

Striving,attaining perfection

And again obliteraring-

A circle of futility

A myriad of explosions,

Outbursts of passion.

 

Unreasonable yet still seeking

Haunting pleasures undefined

Nights lost in carnality,

Dizzy days-uncanny, superficial;

Intoxicating sleep of nightmares

Grasping time in space.

 

Vast, infinite, yet constricted,

Returning to etched pains,

Hope burning-flickering stars;

Round and round, again and again

Visions replayed, hallucinating.